Kaz chewed on the inside of her lip, running the scenario
through in her head, her impatience growing as she neared the drop out
point for the Home Two. It would take time to ready the Rescue
Shuttle and the other two X-wings - time the crew of the destroyed freighter
didn't have. The Coral had no idea how long the wreck had been
there before they arrived, it could have been minutes, it could have
been hours. Potentially the escape pods could keep them alive for days,
but if the Empire had attacked then goddess knew what sort of state
any surviving pods were in. Damn! Damn it!
A line of text appeared on the screen. She read it,
unable to stop the small smile that tugged at the edge of her lips,
"I'm sorry, Arfore. I wasn't ignoring you. I was just thinking."
Another string of characters appeared, asking about
the freighter. "I don't know," she told the little droid,
"But we'll do what we can... Just be ready to transmit the co-ordinates
the Coral gave us as soon as we drop into normal space."
She checked the chronometer again. Three minutes... Come on! Come on!
She had poured on the power, risking Enilra's wrath
by over-stressing the engines, trying to get back to the Home Two
as fast as she could. And at this speed she would drop out a good few
minutes before Xen and the Coral. With any luck, Lainy and
Shei would have stayed in the hanger, waiting for them getting back.
All she could do now was hope that the Flight hadn't started stripping
down their X-wings.
Arfore dumped a page of data onto the screen, telling
her that they were approaching the drop-out point. She started the checks,
forcing herself to take her time, knowing that if she rushed them she
would miss something and that could cause even more problems. A chime
rang in her earpiece and then she was pushed slightly forward into the
restraints as the hyperspace corridor shattered into the darkness of
normal space. Ahead of her, the Home Two sat gracefully silent.
"Arfore, start transmitting the co-ordinates!"
She toggled the comms switch, giving the Alliance’ emergency code
signal. "Condition Red! Condition Red! Condition Red! Home
Two, this is Knight Leader."
The call was answered immediately, "Knight Leader,
Home Two, Condition Red acknowledged. Go ahead!"
"Freighter down!" Kaz began, "I say
again, freighter down. Search and Rescue required. Transmitting the
co-ordinates to you now! Requesting immediate refuel. Knight Two is
five minutes behind."
On the bridge of the Mon Cal vessel the controller
glanced across to the Ops officer who gave him a thumbs up, telling
him, "Co-ordinates coming through. And the Knights are already
launching."
The controller grinned, turning back to the console,
"Copied, Knight Leader. We have the co-ordinates. And Omega is
already in the air."
Kaz had taken another breath, about to give the controller
more information when she suddenly realised what he'd said. She blinked,
then toggled the switch, "Home Two, say again!"
"Six fighters and one rescue shuttle just launched
out of the hanger, heading your way," he told her.
And then the voice of her oldest friend told her, "Knight
Leader, this is Knight Three plus six, requesting further instructions."
How? Kaz thought briefly. Then she grinned, deciding
not to question the fates. "Negative, Knight Three, you have control.
We'll refuel then join you."
"Copied, Knight Leader. How bad is the Coral hit?"
"It's not the Coral, Lainy, it's the
supply ship she was due to meet. The Coral reported complete
destruction but signs of survivors."
Lainy glanced at her data screen as Goose dropped information
onto it, "Roger that, Kaz." She scrolled quickly down through
the data, "All wings confirm co-ordinates locked and routing loaded!"
The Controller on the Home Two waited until
the shuttle, the last of the Omega ships, had checked in. Behind him,
the Ops officer reported, "Another T-65 coming through!"
Then a junior officer told him, "Hangar five report they're ready
for a hot refuel, Sir."
The Controller nodded telling Hawkspar, "Knight
One, route direct to the hangar. They're ready and waiting. Break, break.
Knight Two this is the Home Two, do you copy?"
"Reading you loud and clear, Home Two," Xen's voice confirmed,
"Requesting instructions."
"Follow Knight Leader to the hanger for immediate refuel."
"Copied, following Knight Leader."
"Home Two," Lainy reported, "Omega is locked, loaded
and ready to jump!"
"Roger that, Knight Three, jump at your discretion! Force be with
you."
Lainy grinned, accelerating away from the huge bulk
of the Mon Cal cruiser, "Copied Home Two." She checked
the data screen, making sure that the other X-wings were following.
"Omega, all wings jump to hyperspace on my command."
~ * ~
The T-65 settled onto the deck with a thump, ground
crews rushing in as Kaz started the after-landing checks. Then a voice
crackled in her earpiece, "Commander?"
Hawkspar look up, out of the cockpit, "Yeh?"
Lori Enilra was standing at the side of the fighter,
talking into the Deck Officer’s comset. "Keep the engines
running, we’ll do a hot refuel."
Kaz lifted her hand in acknowledgement, "Copied, Flight. Xen,
you get that?"
Xen’s voice confirmed, "Copied that, Boss."
Kaz glanced at the checklist, then back at Enilra who
was turning to walk away. "Flight, you got a minute?"
She saw Lori look round first at her X-wing then at
Xen’s. Then she smiled, telling her, "Yeh, they got it under
control."
"When did the others arrive?"
"Not long after you went out. And Ops just informed
me that we’ve got two more coming in later."
Kaz grinned. They were almost up to a half Flight… She keyed
the mike again, "Any idea who arrived?"
Lori shook her head, "No, but Catterin left her data pad with
Ymra. I could find out."
"Thanks, Flight! I owe you one!"
"Only one?" Xen quipped. "Don’t let her fool you,
Flight!"
"As if I would! You owe me about ten, Commander
Hawkspar!" Lori laughed, walking away towards the Deck Officer’s
niche.
In the gallery above the hanger, Maggs Ronnoc watched
the scene below, listening to the conversation on her headset, waiting
to ask her own questions. As the Flight walked away, she pressed the
com button, "Commander? Lieutenant Commander Ronnoc…"
"Maggs!" Kaz greeted, checking the engine’s
temperature gauges, "What do you need to know?"
"The Coral’s just docking, but I need an idea of what happened…"
"Okay…" Kaz frowned at one of the readouts.
"Maggs, just standby for a second…" The gauge was showing
green, but every now and then it flickered to red before settling back
into the green. Sighing, she pulling up more data. She had definitely
over-stressed the starboard coolant coupling. Swearing, she entertained
briefly the thought of shutting down. But the data showed that it would
hold - for now. It wasn’t as bad as it could have been. And even
if it did get worse she could reduce the power settings and limp home…
Still… "Damn!" she thought.
"Looks like you’re not going to get away with it, Kaz..."
The Flight was going to chew her out for this big time.
"Maggs?"
"I’m here," Ronnoc replied, then asked, "Problems?"
"No," Kaz lied easily. Then changed the subject,
"The Coral was late for the rendezvous. When it turned
up the captain said that the supply freighter he was supposed to have
met with before us had been destroyed. There were survivors, but the
Coral didn’t have the facilities to bring them aboard,
so she headed for our rendezvous."
"Was it an accident, or was it the Empire?" Maggs asked softly.
"They said that it had been hit and completely destroyed."
"I’ll take that as a hostile act…" the Intelligence
Officer muttered softly.
"I’d bet money on it, Maggs."
"Commander?" Lori interrupted.
"Go, Flight."
"The pilots that arrived are Dalhanyo Grandeen,
Xen Emaar, and the other two were ferry pilots. Baz and Hobbie went
out."
Xen’s heart sank as she heard her sister’s
name. So Em was already here… She had dreaded this from
the moment Kaz had told her that Emaar was joining the Knights. They
could have put her in Rogue, or in one of the A-wing squadrons. But
no, they had put her in this one. Unless, of course she had asked for
the Knights… Could Em have somehow known that she was in this
squadron? She sighed in disgust. Come on, Edraa, be serious.
You disappeared off the face of the galaxy, you didn’t tell her
what you were doing, you haven’t seen her for two years…
Xen sighed again, shaking her head. She was still finding
it hard enough to believe that Em had left the ranks of the Imperial
Navy. She had always been staunchly pro-Emperor, even after Alderaan.
But people changed, didn’t they… So what the hells had happened
to make her big sister no only leave the Imperial Navy but defect to
the Alliance?
Unless Aunt Bel had finally admitted the truth…
The most important question now, she decided, was how
the hells Em was going to react when she saw her?
~ # ~
Wedge Antilles took deep, quavering breaths, trying
to fight down the nausea that threatened to swamp him. The sudden rush
of adrenalin had faded, leaving him a shaking, physical wreck with little
to do but think about what had just happened. He ran the scenario over
and over in his mind, trying to work out if there was something he could
have done, some way to help rather than just turning tail and running.
But it was too much for him to accept, the concept incomprehensible.
The Regimen Hope was gone...
How could they...? How could they have done it...?
A medical frigate for Fates' sake. And Paco... Goddess, Paco, I'm sorry...
He tried to swallow down the lump that appeared suddenly
in his throat. He closed his eyes against the burning sting of the tears
that welled up and spilled down his cheeks.
Paco... One of the few who had made it out
of Hoth... That left only four that he knew of. And Hobbie had been
reassigned.
A small voice at the back of his mind warned him that
he was losing it, warned him that he had to pull himself together and
be strong for the others or they could all go to pieces...
But the tears, now they had begun, refused to stop.
The ache in his throat expanded down into his chest and he wept openly,
breaking his heart in the loneliness of the machine that was the only
home he had left.
~ * ~
Once the X-wings had turned tail and run from the location,
Templ’s men were ordered to stay out for a while to make sure
that no other Rebel ships arrived. An hour later, confident that none
would show, Templ ordered his pilots back to the Domination.
There was no chatter over the comm units on the short
flight back, which was unusual from the Zeta pilots. Normally, they
were full of banter and playful comments and insults for each other.
On this occasion they were all silent. Largely due to Maclen’s
comment, Templ thought.
They were almost at the docking bays now, and Templ
decided to take some action. He flipped the switch to activate the ship-to-ship
comm.
"Zeta Three, I want to see you in debrief as soon
as we land. Got that?" His tone left no room for argument.
"Copy that Zeta Leader." Maclen’s voice
sounded subdued, almost as though he expected the message. The truth
of it was that Maclen knew he had overstepped the mark as soon as the
comment had fallen from his lips. It had been too late to take it back,
the damage was done, whether he apologised or tried to cover it, the
others undoubtedly knew what he meant.
~ * ~
Xen checked the gauges, the buzz beginning to build
inside her again as she saw that she was almost refuelled. Less than
ten minutes and she’d be on her way.
But the thoughts only drew her back towards her sister:
who was winging her way towards the rescue of the freighter. Older than
her by two years, Emaar had been the bright one, always doing well in
school without seeming even to try; while she had slogged her way through
anything academical and had still only succeeded in average grades.
Not that her parents had chosen favourites between
them. She had been as congratulated and as fussed over and as loved
as her sister. Her parents hadn’t minded what grades either of
their daughters achieved, as long as they had given their best. And
everything had been fine. Until she had shown a greater aptitude for
piloting a land speeder than her older sister. That’s when the
sibling rivalry had truly started. But it had spurred Edraa on. And
suddenly she found herself enjoying all the studying she had to do.
And quite astoundingly she had found that she enjoyed the mathematical
side of her studies.
And then things had changed dramatically. Her parents
had died, Emaar had been accepted for the Academy and she had gone to
stay with Aunt Bel. And then, just when it had seemed that things couldn’t
get any worse, the whole universe was turned upside down as news of
the destruction of Alderaan hit the headlines.
Xen closed her eyes, memories flowing back to the huge
argument she’d had with Emaar on that final, fateful visit when
her Sister was on leave. Palpatine had just dissolved the Senate and
Emaar had been recalled to the Academy. Life with Aunt Bel had changed
Xen’s views on certain things. But her sister couldn’t see
it. And so they had argued, vehemently, and Emaar had left while things
had still been unresolved between them.
From then on, events had moved so fast that she hadn’t
really had time to think them through. And so here she was, Second in
Command to a "Rebel Alliance" X-wing squadron. And her sister
had just turned up. And all she really wanted was for her parents to
walk into the hanger and tell her that everything would be all right…
But her parents had been dead for over four years.
The Republic they had believed in was gone. And she was here. And so
was her sister...
Directly in front of her, Kaz Hawkspar glanced at the
data readouts and swore softly. The coolant gauge was flickering more
often into the red. "Come on, baby," she willed, "keep
it together…" But she knew there was no way she could go
out now. She swore again, reaching over to beginning the shut-down sequence,
"Flight, I’ve got a problem with the starboard coolant coupling.
I’m going to have to…"
Kaz felt rather than heard the sudden crack that shuddered
through the X-wing. The flickering readings spiked, surging into the
red. Her stomach flipped as the core temperature readings also began
to rise steadily into the red, "Damn! Flight! Emergency shutdown!
Core overheat! Core overheat!"
Enilra swung round, yelling to Xen’s crew, "Cut
the refuel! Disconnect the coupling and get the hell out of here!"
She turned back, swearing as she saw the pink cooling fluid spraying
out from beneath the s-foils of Commander’s X-wing, Ary struggling
to disconnect the refuel pipe as the pink liquid soaked him. "Everybody
out!" she yelled, moving to help him, "Now!
At her desk, Ymra heard the loud bang and turned, dread
slamming through her as she saw coolant fluid spraying across the deck
from the Commander’s fighter. She hit the crash alarm, snatching
at the comlink on her desk. Personnel were already moving towards the
exits as her voice cut over the wail of the klaxon, "Emergency
evacuation! Emergency evacuation! Clear the hanger!"
Hawkspar moved carefully through the emergency shut
down procedures, aware that the ground personnel had dropped everything
and were running away from the T-65. Aware that if the engine exploded,
the only person left alive in the hanger would be Xen.
The core temperature was still rising…
Cursing, Kaz finished the shutdown but left the power
on to the console, undoing her restraints. She cracked the canopy open,
but stayed in the cockpit for a few more moments, watching the engine
readouts as the canopy swung upwards. The crash crews were running in,
pushing the canisters of foam ahead of them. Xen’s engines spooled
up another notch. Kaz glanced over as the X-wing lifted off the deck,
then turned her attention back to the readouts as Xen swung her fighter
round and headed out into space.
"Commander!" the Fire Officer ordered, as
the crews started spraying foam across the starboard engines, "Get
out! Now!"
She stood up, switching the console power off, swinging
her legs over the side of the fighter. "Core temperature’s
stopped rising, starting to stabilise," she told him dropping down
the ladder onto the deck.
He nodded in acknowledgement, then turned his attention
to the two engineers, ordering "Move back!"
The Flight glanced across at him, still struggling
with Ary to get the fuel pipe disengaged, opening her mouth to ask for
just a little more time. But the coupling finally turned, unlocking
from the fighter. They pulled it free, dropping the pipe onto the deck
and turned, running after Kaz towards the far edge of the hanger.
~ # ~
Notrahw glanced across at the Ops officer as an alarm
began to chime on the console. The man said nothing for a moment, listening
to what was being said in his earpiece. Then he turned, "Sir, emergency
evacuation of hangar five. One of the T-65’s engines is going
critical."
Notrahw blinked, his only outward sign of concern as
he pushed himself slowly to his feet, wondering what the hells was going
to go wrong next. If the T-65 blew, it would take the hangar with it
- and three decks either side. "Seal all bulkheads," he ordered,
"Sound Emergency Stations and advise all docked ships to clear
the hull. All personnel ready to evacuate."
~ # ~
Rishard Bess drew deeply on the tabac stick, watching
as the first crates of the cargo were rolled off of the Troubadour and
onto the Home Two. Then everyone hesitated for a brief moment
as an alarm klaxon started wailing in the corridor of the Mon Cal ship.
The handlers exchanged a worried look then shoved the crates as hard
as they could, running with them onto the cruiser.
Bess reached for his comlink, but it was already warbling
at him. He toggled the switch, answering, "Go!"
"Rish, Home Two Control advise they have
an emergency situation. We’ve to disengage docking locks and retreat
to a safe distance."
Bess swiped at the hatch controls then turned, heading
for the Troubadour’s bridge, "On my way!"
~ * ~
Maclen shuffled his way resignedly into the briefing
room beside the hangar. Templ was already there, standing at the viewport,
with his back to the door. And from the look of his body language, he
was ready to let fly with all torpedoes. Templ, in fact was absolutely
furious with Zeta Three, but had chosen to keep a level head during
the debrief. However, a look into his eyes told a different story.
Templ turned and speared Maclen with a single glance.
He nodded for the pilot to sit in the chair opposite his desk. Maclen
sat, his eyes hesitant as he sensed something was wrong, far more than
he suspected. Templ never waited this long to start a debrief. It was
as though he was searching for the right way to begin…
"What d’you think the main aim of the Rebellion
is, Colb?" Templ asked suddenly out of the silence.
"I’m not sure I follow the meaning of the question, Sir,"
replied Maclen.
"It’s not a trick question," Templ
followed quickly. "What are the Rebels here to do?" Templ’s
whole manner left no room for pauses.
"I don’t really know Sir." Maclen was clearly confused
by what he saw as irrelevant questions.
"Well, I’ll tell you, shall I?" Evidently
this was a rhetorical question, as he didn’t even pause as he
continued.
"The Rebels are here to bring down our Government.
They think that everyone is able to look after themselves, feed and
clothe all their people, and defend themselves against Galactic threats.
They want to see us DEAD. We represent the front lines of the opposition
forces. With us in the way, they have problems terrorising the rest
of the Galaxy. Of course, they say they are freedom fighters: they are
liberating these worlds, not plunging them back into the Dark Ages by
removing all the support we provide to them." All during this speech,
Templ was stalking about the room, gesticulating wildly in his passion.
Maclen found himself being drawn by Templ’s agitation.
It was difficult to reconcile himself with the information he had just
been given. When asked, he had answered truthfully, he really hadn’t
known why the Rebels were doing what they were doing. But with Templ’s
tirade, he realised that he had actually heard all the propaganda, but
had just paid it no heed. His introspection was cut short as Templ seemed
to gather himself and begin to wind down. Templ had turned to face Maclen,
with something akin to pleading in his fiery eyes.
"Colb, you must understand that we destroyed a
Medical Frigate today because every single person on that ship was Hells-bent
on having us blown out of the stars." Templ paused to gauge the
effect his talk was having on the young pilot. It appeared to be working.
"Maybe some of them were injured on that ship, and some of the
supplies were intended to treat the sick and the injured, but if those
people get better, they’ll just be swelling the ranks of those
set against us. Do you understand?"
"Yes, sir." Maclen’s eyes were bright
now with new-found enthusiasm. "I just hadn’t really given
it any thought before now Sir."
Templ managed to remain upright and focussed while
he dismissed the young firebrand and was left alone in the briefing
room. Then his whole body sagged under the full force of the flip-side
of the emotional wave he had been riding, and he sat in the over sized
chair behind the desk. Templ thoroughly believed what he had told Maclen,
it was just that it was getting more difficult to motivate his men when
they were so young that they no longer knew why the were fighting, or
didn’t even bother to think about it any more. He dragged his
hands over his face and came to the conclusion that worrying about it
wasn’t going to help much. At least he could take confidence that
his little pep-talk today was bound to spread like wildfire, and he
would have no more motivation problems for some time.
Templ roused himself from the chair and stalked off
towards his quarters, intent on having a well-earned rest.
~ * ~
"What the hells happened?" Lori demanded,
catching hold of Hawkspar as the bulkhead closed behind them.
"The readings on the starboard coolant system
started fluctuating," Kaz told her, "then suddenly rose into
the red…"
"Sounded like the flange cracked," Ary offered.
Kaz pulled a face, knowing that the Flight was going
to blow her stack and no doubt lecture her for an hour on the does and
don’ts of flying her precious T-65s. But it was probably going
to be better admitting what she’d done than let the Flight find
out for herself and then corner her with it. "I pushed her pretty
hard on the way back."
Lori looked at her, "How hard?"
She quirked an eyebrow, "Pretty much to the limit. Xen and I left
the area at the same time…"
"But," Ary frowned, thinking out loud, doing
a quick calculation in his head, "it wasn’t for that long…"
He shook his head, "It shouldn’t have… And we did a
complete overhaul…"
Lori patted his arm, throwing Hawkspar a glare, "Forget
it, Chief. We’ll have a look once they let us back in. There’s
no point in formulating any theories until we’ve had a chance
to inspect the damage." She turned to Kaz, "With any luck
she won’t be out of commission for too long."
"We’d better get some dry clothes,"
she said, turning back to Ary, "or we’re going to freeze
when we get back into the hangar."
~ # ~
Foam clung to the s-foil of the X-wing, dropping the
temperature of the metal as it visibly evaporated, cooling the engine,
coating the frame and snuffing out sparks from the fried electrical
circuits. Foam had mixed with coolant on the deck, turning it into a
thick, pink-swirled gloop and filling the hangar with an acrid, sickly,
sweet odour. The Fire Officer watched his crews swapping places, pulling
in new canisters to replace the spent ones. Finally confident that the
engine had cooled to a point where it wasn’t imminently going
to explode, he signalled for them to stop spraying. The foam faded to
a trickle and they all stood for a moment, waiting for something to
happen. When nothing did, the Fire Officer pulled his comlink from his
pocket. "Control," he told the bridge, "this is Hangar
Five. Incident contained. Stand down from emergency stations."
"Copied," the Ops Officer replied, turning
to Notrahw as he acknowledged, "Incident contained and standing
down."
"Roger that," the Fire Officer confirmed.
Then he smirked, "Better let the Flight back in to croon over her
beloved baby!"
"Copied, Hangar Five," the Ops officer grinned.
"Sir, the Fire Officer reports that personnel can return to the
hangar."
Notrahw shook his head, sighing as he sat back down
in the seat, "Then let them in, Lieutenant, let them in. Secure
for Emergency Stations. And advise our little friends that they may
dock with us again when ready."
He took a deep breath, letting it out slowly; ridding
himself of the tension that had tightened along his spine. He was getting
too old for all this excitement. Perhaps it was time to stand aside
and let a younger person shoulder the responsibility? There had to be
a quiet little desk job somewhere on Mon Mothma’s senior staff
that had his name labelled to it… He looked round the bridge,
his eyes finally settling in the tactical screen, watching as the small
arrows that indicated the positions of the ships who had disengaged
from the docking bays changed colour as one by one they started back
towards the Home Two. He frowned, taking another deep breath.
I mean, would I really miss all of this?
A slow grin pulled at the corners of his lips. Daav
Notrahw, you old fool, who are you trying to kid? Quiet little desk
job…? He laughed out loud, pulling startled looks from the
rest of the bridge crew. Which only made matters worse. Another giggle
tried to rise to the surface. Any moment now he was going to embarrass
himself and seriously dent his authority by laughing uncontrollably.
He turned it into a harrumph, pulling his face straight, clearing his
throat and standing up. "I’ll be in my office!" he told
no-one in particular and wandered as quickly as his rank allowed towards
the door, hands clasped behind his back. He managed to maintain his
dignity until the door closed behind him. And then he sank against the
wall, laughing until tears streamed from his eyes.
~ # ~
Xen sighed in relief as the call came for the ships
to return to the Home Two. Whatever the hells had happened,
the crash crews obviously had it under control. But the Boss’s
fighter was most probably out of action… So, did she go back to
the hangar or did she head out to join Lainy?
"Home Two, this is Knight Two requesting further instructions."
There was a slight pause, then the controller told her, "Knight
Two, stand by."
He turned to the Ops Officer, "Knight Two is requesting further
instructions."
"I’m on it!" the Lieutenant told him. "Hangar
Five, this is the Bridge."
"Bridge, Hangar Five," the Deck Officer answered. "Go
ahead."
"Advise Commander Hawkspar that Knight Two is requesting instructions."
Ymra looked round the hangar and saw Hawkspar standing
beside the X-wing, deep in discussion with the Fire Officer as the crash
crews pulled the canisters away from the fighter and the ground crews
moved in to mop up the gunge that lay beneath the T-65. "Bridge,
stand by," she told him, then ran across the deck towards Hawkspar.
"Commander," she asked, handing over the comlink, "The
Bridge is asking what you want Lieutenant Commander Edraa to do."
Kaz looked at the Fire Officer. There was no point
in Xen going to rendezvous with Lainy now. By the time she reached the
co-ordinates the rest of the squadron could be on their way back. And
there was no way Kaz was going to send out a solo fighter. "Is
it safe for her to come back?" she asked him.
He nodded, "Sure. Incident is over." He grinned,
then added, "Unless you want to include the Flight’s reaction
when she gets back in."
Kaz threw him a sour look. "Bridge, this is Commander
Hawkspar. Tell Knight Two to come back in."
~ # ~
The sobs finally subsided, leaving Wedge drained and
exhausted. He knew that he desperately needed some down time. They all
did. They had been living on fear and adrenaline and nerves for far
too long, one thing after another pushing them further and further towards
their limits since the scrambled evacuation of Echo Base. There had
been time to mourn, but not long enough. Not long enough to allow time
to heal. Yet, even as part of him acknowledged that they needed a break,
another part of him accepted that there was no way they could. It wasn’t
just Rogue, every squadron in the Alliance was being pushed to the limit.
Goddess, Omega had just been all but wiped out. Kaz was just this side
of breaking point, as were Lainy and Xen.
So pull yourself together, man! Stop feeling so Goddess-damned
sorry for yourself!
The words were easy. But the reality so much more difficult.
He was tired of fighting. He was tired of being strong. He was tired
of watching the people around him die...
Paco…
At least the freighters were safe. At least he hadn’t
died for nothing. And they were heading back to the Home Two
now. Things would seem different once someone else was in control. Like
at Yavin…
His memories flowed back to the jubilation, the immense
overwhelming sense of joy and accomplishment. And the pride in his comrades:
pride that had overshadowed the sadness of so much death. He and Luke
had drunk themselves into a stupor with Han after the medal ceremony…
Hope sparked and he grasped hold of it. Maybe when
he got back to the Home Two they would have news of Luke. And
of the Princess and Han Solo and Chewbacca…