The alarm stabbed into Kaz’s sleep. She groaned,
turning over, mumbling, "Alarm off!" The warble dropped into
silence. She lay for a moment longer, wondering how late it had been
before she had finally made it to bed the night before. She remembered
her Chief walking along the corridor with her and her asking him to
check on Lainy. She sat up, swinging her legs out of the bed, ordering,
"Lights."
Despite everything she’d drunk the night before,
she felt okay. Tired, but okay. She grinned. Lainy was going to be suffering,
though! Knowing it was unkind, but relishing the thought of being able
to get a few digs at her friend, she stood up, stripping off and turning
on the shower.
The warm water felt glorious, refreshing her. Feeling
better than she had done for days, she reached for the towel, her mind
already beginning to run over squadron details. Lainy had already taken
Shei through the basics of flying an X-wing in the sims and had been
impressed at how quickly the A-wing pilot had picked up on the differences
and adapted. Notrahw had promised Poom-Bar that another two fighters
would be arriving… tomorrow. Which meant that both Xen and Shei
could fly.
Flight Enilra had finally given up on trying to salvage
Xen’s damaged T-65 – the structural integrity of the wing
strut had been too badly impaired to even attempt repairing. First
time she jumps into hyperspace it’ll buckle again and the fighter
could be ripped apart.
But with two new fighters… She grinned again, remembering Lori’s
comment – And how long before they dent those?
She dragged on her uniform, still thinking about the
sim exercises that she could do with Shei to bring her up to speed.
If Lainy was impressed she must be good, but Kaz wanted to see Shei
fly for herself… and if she could persuade Poom-Bar to find a
respirator unit from somewhere, Shei could use Lainy’s fighter,
get a real feel for flying. The simulators were fine, but there was
a subtle difference to flying the real thing. The thought of taking
the X-wing out again thrilled through her.
But it also brought memories of the Richlo’s Rest disaster.
The pain, regret and guilt were still there, but she found that they
had eased slightly. She allowed her mind to drift across the faces of
her dead pilots, remembering them as they had been on that last day
when they had seen the evidence of Lainy Kal’Ten’s practical
joke…
Dismay washed through her.
Lainy’s damned practical joke! Enilra had, quite rightly, insisted
to Notrahw that Lainy face court-martial for her actions. Notrahw had
started to agree. Then it had been forgotten as the X-wings were launched
in answer to the distress call. With everything else that had happened
she had hadn’t remembered about it until now…
Biting her lip she hit the door release, wondering
if there was any way she could persuade Lori not to press charges…
The door slid open, startling the man who had been just about to press
the door chime. Surprised, they both stepped back. Then he grinned at
her, "Good morning, Ma’am."
For a moment she didn’t believe her eyes, "Wedge?"
"The one and only," he assured her.
She laughed, hugging him, "Goddess, Antilles,
it’s good to see you."
He returned the hug, holding her tightly, then they broke away, looking
one another over, grinning inanely. "You’ve been promoted!"
she said finally, "So what happened to the teenage hot shot I knew
on Dantooine?"
"He grew up… But I can see that the tall,
red-headed CO is still as gorgeous as she always was."
She laughed again, stepping back into her quarters,
"Flatterer! Well don’t just stand there! Come in! How long
are you here for?"
He moved past her, "Only a few more hours or so.
We’re escorting a transport that’s here to pick up some
of the Richlo survivors." He looked at her, "Heard
you took some heavy casualties."
"We lost all but three," she told him sadly
then turned to rummage in one of the cupboards in the kitchen area,
looking for the bag of kaffin she was sure she had. She found it, turning
back to him, "I was sorry to hear about the Tantive."
"I’m still reeling," he admitted, dropping into one
of the chairs, "I was just getting a handle on it when I heard
about Alderaan…" He shook his head, "Sometimes I wonder
of this will ever end." She turned away, pouring the powder into
two mugs, putting the water on to boil as he continued, "Yavin
gave everyone so much hope... But we left so many behind on Hoth. And
with Luke and the Princess still missing…"
Saying nothing she walked over, sitting opposite him.
Rumours had been rife that the Commander and the Millennium Falcon
were still MIA almost three months after the attack on Echo Base. Now
she knew that the rumours were true. She reached over, taking his hand
and squeezing it gently. He looked across at her, smiling sadly.
Hawkspar had lived through Omega Squadron’s own
nightmares, as had Kal’Ten and now Edraa. But Hoth had ripped
at everyone’s morale and Skywalker, Solo and the Wookiee were
the heroes of Yavin. Somehow that hit where it hurt the most.
"So," she asked quietly, "do you want to tell me how
you’ve been really?"
"Better than most," he admitted. "They
promoted me to Commander and I’ve been too busy since then to
really have a chance to think about it…" The sadness settled
a little more heavily around him, "Except when I’m alone
at night. It’s always worse at night."
Kaz gave him a level, measured look, "And since
when did Wedge Antilles start sleeping alone at night?"
He laughed, the melancholy lifting slightly, "Since
I discovered that it wasn’t helping me to forget that I’d
missed my chance with a certain red-headed Commander!"
"I don’t remember you ever asking!" she pointed out.
He considered her for a moment, unsure how to take
the comment, wondering for a moment if it was an invitation before changing
the subject, "So, how come they haven’t promoted you?"
The water heater clicked off and she stood up, grinning,
"They’ve tried, but I’m not meant for a desk job. Notrahw
finally got fed up badgering me about it. And besides, it would mean
leaving Lainy in charge."
"Lainy? Lainy Kal’Ten? Is she still with
you?" His thoughts drifted back to the quiet, serious girl who
had arrived on Dantooine just before they’d abandoned it and he’d
been transferred with three of the others into Red Squadron.
"Still with me, still causing trouble and now my Second, for my
sins."
"Still causing trouble? She struck me as a mouse."
Kaz laughed, a deep infectious sound that soon had
him giggling, "Oh," she sighed finally, "she was quiet
and unassuming for a while. Then her true nature kicked back in and
I found myself wishing that my Father hadn’t let her join up until
she was eighteen. A sixteen year old, away from home for the first time…"
"I remember!" he interrupted, "I was
that sixteen year old!" He took the proffered mug of kaffin, telling
her, "I’ll never forget the day you put me up against a wall
and threatened to kick my butt from here to Coruscant because I was
more dangerous to the squadron than the Empire."
"I did?" she asked, not remembering the incident, sitting
back down opposite him.
"The day one of my manoeuvres almost killed you, your wingman
and my wing-control?"
She stopped, mug half way to her mouth, "Oh…
I remember!" She grinned, "I think I used that one on Lainy
two years later, you know."
Wedge laughed, then admitted, "I used it on a
rookie only the other day! Poor kid was as terrified of me as I was
of you!"
"Ah," she told him, "the privileges of rank!"
~ * ~
Aryes Drayke woke slowly, opening his eyes as Lainy
Kal’Ten groaned softly. He grinned, looking at her as she dragged
her eyes open and groaned again. "Morning!" he greeted.
Startled, she pulled away, suddenly realising that
he was there. But the movement only made her head spin, pulling another
groan from her and she dropped her head back onto his arm, "I feel
awful."
"I’m not surprised, the state you lot were in last night!"
"Shh," she pleaded, "not so loud…"
He grinned again, watching the bemused expression on
her face a she tried to open her eyes again, looking up at him, "Where
am I?"
"In your quarters…"
"Why are you here?"
"Because the Commander asked me to check on you."
He stopped, wondering if he should explain further, deciding that it
would probably be for the best, "You were upset. I gave you a shoulder
to cry on and you fell asleep."
Memories of the night before returned. "I was drunk," she
defended.
"I know," he told her softly. "But you were also being
truthful, for once in your life."
Fear and apprehension tightened in the pit of Lainy’s
stomach as she realised how much of herself she might just have betrayed
to this man who had never made any attempt to disguise the fact that
he didn’t have much time for her. And yet here he was lying in
her bed having held her as she cried herself to sleep beside him.
Ary saw the confusion and the apprehension sweep across
her face and realised once again just how vulnerable she actually was.
He got up, walking across to the water dispenser, pouring a glass of
the ice-cold liquid. Hawkspar’s words echoed in his head again,
She’s not as brave as she makes out…
He had seen that last night. He understood her a little
more and now that he did he felt guilty about the off-handed way he
usually treated her. He turned, walking back to the bed, handing her
the glass.
"Thanks." She took it, sipping the liquid
slowly. Her head pounded, she felt distinctly unwell and she couldn’t
work out why he was still here…
"Are you going to be okay?"
"I always am," she told him, forcing herself to give him
an assured smile.
He sat down on the bed beside her, "That’s
what I mean. Are you going to be okay, really okay?"
Tension made her snap at him, "What the hells
has it to do with you?" Then she regretted it as her head thumped
harder and her stomach flipped.
"Absolutely nothing!" he snapped back, pushing
himself abruptly to his feet and heading towards the door. Then he stopped,
turning back, "Damn it, Lainy, you were breaking your heart last
night! That’s not something I’m going to forget in a hurry!
The indestructible, irresponsible Lainy Kal’Ten finally showing
a weakness?"
She refused to look at him, staring down into the glass of water, tears
welling up. She wasn’t going to do this, she refused to do
this in front of him. But she was tired and she was hung-over and
she was scared because he hadn’t left yet. And she was still guilty
about everything that had happened. And right now she couldn’t
take anyone having a go at her, least of all him.
He saw the tear that slid slowly down her cheek and
silently cursed his own actions. He walked back across to the bed, sitting
beside her, "Lainy?"
"Please don’t shout at me?" she whispered, "I
really don’t feel very well."
He gathered her into his arms, holding her as she cried
again. Then he pulled away, tilting her head up, "Lainy?"
She kept her eyes closed, tears still spilling down her cheeks and
he tried again, "Lainy?"
She shook her head, trying to pull away. He swore softly.
Damn her, either he stayed here with her, or he left her to it! But
knowing that he would never forgive himself if he left her like this,
there was no other decision he could make. And besides… He took
a deep breath, coming to another decision. Gently, tentatively he pulled
her back towards him kissing her lightly on the lips.
Astounded, her eyes snapped open and she stared at
him as he broke away. He smiled at her, pushing her hair back behind
her ear, telling her quietly, "You are the most irritating, hard-headed,
stubborn woman I have ever known."
She looked at him, unable to find anything to say.
Then she felt the colour draining from her face as her stomach finally
rebelled against the alcohol. "I’m going to be sick…"
The water landed on him as she thrust the glass into
his hand, racing for the toilet. He sat, looking at his drenched trousers
then across at the bathroom door, shaking his head, unable to stop the
laughter as he checked the chronometer on the wall.
She finally reappeared, pale and shaky, walking across
to sink down on the bed. "I want to die…"
Still laughing he crossed back to the water dispenser,
pouring her another glass and walking back to the bed. He handed it
to her and she took it, squinting at him, "I got your uniform."
"It’s only water. It’ll dry. You’ve
got thirty minutes before I’m due on duty." He moved towards
the door, "Have a shower! I’ll be back in fifteen with something
for you to eat."
"No..." she groaned.
"Don’t," he warned, "make me strip you and dump
you in the shower!"
Her eyes went wide, "You wouldn’t!"
He stood, arms folded across his chest, foot tapping
on the floor, giving her a level try me look. She pushed herself back
to her feet, heading cautiously towards the shower, "Okay, I’m
going. I’m going."
Ary grinned, turning and walking into the corridor.
~ * ~
The alarm intruded on the nightmare, giving credibility
to the klaxon that warbled in the cockpit, warning her that a TIE had
locked-on to her as another pulled up in front of her, breaking out
of her sights. She tried to follow but it swung round, aiming back towards
her, guns spitting laser fire. She tried to push the fighter down into
a roll, but her controls froze on her. Panic tore at her. She wrestled
with the controls, trying desperately to move out of the line of fire…
but her shields were failing… the blaster fire was blossoming
against the hull…
Xen screamed, slamming upright as she woke, gasping
for breath and drenched in sweat. The lights came on. Terrified, disoriented,
she sat looking round herself, the last vague images faded into the
darker recesses of her mind
"Alarm off!" she yelled, sinking back down
onto the pillows, trying to calm herself. It was a dream, only a dream.
She was safe, on board the Home Two. The TIEs weren’t
real.
But they had been real at the Richlo’s Rest.
They had been terrifyingly real and there had been so many of them.
She didn’t remember the wreckage hitting her. She didn’t
remember asking the Boss for help afterwards. But obviously her subconscious
did. She closed her eyes, taking long, deep breaths. Once she got back
into the X-wing, once she was out there again and flying everything
would be okay. And the Supply had assured her that a new T-65 would
be arriving tomorrow.
She swung her legs out of the bed, sitting on the edge
for a moment before heading towards the shower. She would be flying
tomorrow. All she had to do was get through tonight.
~ * ~
Kaz laughed at Wedge’s story, standing up and
walking to the com unit to answer the buzzer, "Yes?"
"Commander," Maggs Ronnoc’s voice told
her, "The Vice-Admiral would like to see you as soon as possible."
"Thank you, Lieutenant," she said, pulling
a face "Let him know that I’m on my way." She turned
back to Wedge, "No rest for the wicked…"
He laughed, "There never is. Look," he continued,
standing up, "if we’re still here, can I take you to lunch
or something, for old time’s sake? To apologise for the pain in
the butt that I used to be?"
"Wedge, no apology is needed," she assured him, "But
yes, that would be nice…"
They walked into the corridor together, meeting Catterin
Poom-Bar coming the other way. She stopped, looking from her CO to Antilles,
a slow grin tugging at her mouth. Antilles leaving Hawkspar’s
room first thing in the morning…. Well, well, well. She smiled,
telling Kaz, "Uh, Boss, we’ve got a new recruit. Came in
with Commander Antilles last night."
Hawkspar turned to look at him, and he flashed her
a mischievous smile, "Oh, yeh… Sorry, meant to tell you.
Nice bloke, Baz Ahtron. Not long joined up."
Kaz shook her head, in dismay, "Another rookie?"
"I got him sorted out with quarters," Poom-Bar
assured her. "And told him to be back in the hanger for oh nine
hundred."
"Have you seen any of the others this morning?" Kaz asked,
quirking an eyebrow.
"No, Ma’am. You’re the first."
"Make sure they’re all awake, can you? And
then introduce them to Baz. I’ll be with them as soon as I can.
Notrahw wants to see me."
"Yes, Ma’am." She turned walking back
along the corridor, hearing Antilles tell the Boss, "I’d
better go find my lot. Don’t forget lunch!" Grinning, she
quickened her pace. Wait till the others hear about this!
~ * ~
Lori looked across at the pilot who was still sitting
on a pile of crates watching the engineers work on the Rogue X-wing’s
blaster cannon. Finally she gave up, walking across to him, demanding,
"Should I be insulted that you don’t trust my crew, or are
you genuinely interested?"
He stood up, grinning, "No, Ma’am, I’m
genuinely interested." The grin faded, "I only arrived last
night. The Supply said that I should be here at oh-nine-hundred, but
I sort of woke up early and as I don’t really now my way round
I thought I’d just arrive a little…" He grinned again,
amending, "…a lot early."
"You must be Baz?"
"Yes Ma’am."
She tutted, shaking her head, "Forget the Ma’am,
Flight will do. How much time do you have on the T-65?" From this
enthusiasm he had to be a low hour Rookie, Goddess help him.
"Minimum…" he admitted.
Oh, Boy! she thought. Then she asked, "This
is your first posting?"
"Yes…" he told her, the grin fading slightly, apprehension
lurking behind his eyes.
She patted him on the shoulder, "Don’t worry
about it. You’ll get more experience than you ever wanted soon
enough. If you’re not flying for real then the Commander will
have you flying in the simulators. She expects you to work hard, but
she lets you play hard… Just," she warned, "don’t
ever turn up for duty with a hangover or she’ll have your guts."
She quirked an eyebrow, "Which reminds me, Don’t ever go
up against Hawkspar in a drinking match – she’ll win. And
don’t ever go up against Kal’Ten – because Hawkspar
is fed up scraping her off the floor afterwards!" She saw the apprehension
on Baz’s face growing towards a distinct uneasiness and relented,
giving him a smile, "It’s not that bad! I’m just giving
you a… well… call it a friendly push in the right direction,
okay?"
He grinned at her again, "Yes, Ma’am…" Then corrected,
"Sorry… Flight."
"You’ll be fine!" she assured him.
"Give as good as you get, especially with Kal’Ten –
she’s balshy, but stand up to her and she’ll respect you
more." She thought for a moment then warned him, "They may
not turn up this morning at nine."
"The Remembrance Ceremony?"
She nodded, "Yeh... It kind of hit us hard."
Someone shouted for her from the top of the Rogue Squadron’s T-65
and she glanced across then turned back to him, "One last thing…
If the Commander yells at you after a sim session or if you’ve
been out, it’s probably because she likes what she sees but you’ve
done something stupid. So don’t let it get to you, okay?"
He nodded, "Okay. And… thanks Flight."
She smiled then turned, heading back to the engineering crew.
~ * ~
Kaz walked into the Vice-Admiral’s outer office.
Notrahw looked up from where he was talking to Maggs at her desk, flashing
Hawkspar a quick grin, searching for any after-effects of the previous
night’s indulgence. And finding none as he told her, "Commander,
I’ve got good news for you!"
She gave him an even, measured look, "Why do I get a bad feeling
about that?"
He laughed, accusing, "Anyone would think that you didn’t
trust me, Commander?"
Kaz looked at him, then across at Maggs who shrugged,
quirking an eyebrow at her. She looked back at Notrahw, "Do I have
to reply to that?" Then amended, "Sir?"
"No!" he told her quickly, pulling at his uniform jacket
as he straightened.
"Then," she informed him, "no comment!"
He glared at her in mock anger, growling, "My
office, Commander! Now… before we both say something we’ll
regret!" He turned his attention back to Maggs, "Send that
through, Lieutenant. If there’s a problem let me know."
"Yes, Sir," she assured him as he turned
and followed Kaz into his office. She was standing in front of his desk
totally at ease. "Sit down, Commander," he ordered, "before
you fall down!"
She dropped into the chair as he walked round his desk
sitting opposite her. He leant forward, resting his elbows on the desk,
"So how are we this morning?"
"Me?" she asked brightly. "I’m fine."
He looked at her for a moment, then pressed, "I
hear they had to carry you back to your quarters."
She shook her head, "Not me, Sir! Xen… most
definitely, Lainy… probably! But not me, Sir! Disgraceful behaviour,
Sir."
"One of these days, Kaz," Notrahw warned,
"you are going to wake up with a hangover. And you’re going
to regret it!"
She grinned, acknowledging, "Yes, Sir!" Then countered, "Hasn’t
happened yet, Sir!"
He shook his head, throwing up his hands in mock disgust,
"Agh! I give up! On your own head be it!"
"Yes, Sir," she told him sweetly.
He glared at her, then informed her, "You have
a batch of pilots arriving over the next few days. We’ve had another
influx of Imperial personnel and they’ve been earmarked for Omega."
She leant forward, "What experience do they have?"
"Mostly ex-Academy," he admitted, "but…
there’s two seasoned TIE pilots, although they haven’t yet
been converted to the T-65."
Kaz could tell by his tone of voice that there was
something more. She looked at him, knowing that he would explain everything
in his own good time. And then he surprised her by getting straight
to the point, "One of the pilots is Xen Emmar."
Kaz frowned, not recognising the name though it obviously
held some importance. Again Notrahw surprised her by getting straight
to the point as he explained, "Xen Edraa’s sister."
Astounded and completely floored, Kaz simply looked
at him for a moment, then admitted, "I didn’t even know she
had a sister."
"An older sister, joining us from the ranks of the Empire…"
"One of the TIE pilots?"
"One of the TIE pilots," he confirmed.
Kaz leant back in the chair, "I’m impressed…
There again, Xen’s one of the best… Must run in the family."
"They’ll arrive here in five days. I’ve
already sent word to your Supply Officer, so things should be in hand.
Oh, and a pilot arrived last night with Antilles’ lot."
"Yeh, I know - the Rookie. Wedge told me over
kaffin this morning. At least he’ll have time to settle in before
we get inundated. Are the fighters still arriving today?"
"This afternoon. Fifteen hundred was the last estimate."
Kaz grinned, "Good, that’ll give Lainy time to get over
her hangover."
Daav quirked an eyebrow, "Have you seen her this morning?"
"No," Kaz admitted, then laughed wickedly,
"but I know from experience. She’s probably throwing up in
the shower right now!" She saw the expression on his face, the
reserved, calm look that always boded ill and her heart sank. Hazarding
a guess, she asked, "The Flight’s still pressing charges
about the target?"
"No," he told her, surprising her. Then astonished her by
confessing, "But I am."
"Sir…" she began. But he held up a hand, silencing
her.
"Lainy’s a good pilot and she’s proven
your faith in her as a Second. But the X-wing incident was downright
irresponsible and getting rookie engineers from your crew involved was
unforgivable. I can’t overlook it this time, no matter how much
I want to. The incident after the Imperial’s escape I let go because
she was almost at breaking point..." He stopped, seeing the quickly
concealed expression on Kaz’s face, "She hasn’t told
you?"
Kaz sighed wearily, "No."
Notrahw shook his head, finding himself starting to
laugh as he remembered the details, "Oh, Kaz, it was priceless…"
"What?"
"Lainy had her back to the door. I walked into
the office just as she announced that she ought to be in the med section
with her commanding officer… instead of cooling her heels here
waiting for some jumped up Vice-Admiral."
Kaz groaned, sliding down in her chair, cover her face with her hands,
"What did you do?"
"Reminded her that this jumped up Vice-Admiral
was her commanding officer and that she would do exactly as I ordered
her to." He grinned, "Then I reminded her about the Wookiee
incident."
Kaz’s eyes went wide then she groaned again, shaking her head,
"She’s going to kill me."
"I doubt it," Notrahw told her, his grin
growing, "I filled her in about your run-in with the militia the
time we were supposed to be meeting the Correllian arms dealer."
"I," she defended, "never did throw
that first punch! And if you’d ducked like I told you, there wouldn’t
have been any trouble!" She laughed with him as she shook her head.
Then she sobered, asking him, "So what do you intend to do? About
Lainy."
His laughter faded his face suddenly serious as he
admitted, "Pull her rank and her position in the Flight. And, with
your permission, put Xen Edraa in as Acting Second…"
~ * ~
Lainy was nursing a pounding head, but hadn’t
thrown up again. The door chime went and, dragging on her blouse, she
walked carefully to the door expecting it to be Ary. Instead Poom-Bar
gave her a bright grin, surprised that Kal’Ten was even awake,
let alone up and dressed. "Morning, Lieutenant Commander! Commander
Hawkspar asked me to check that everyone was still alive."
Lainy forced herself to return the wide smile, even
though the lights in the corridor were too bright, announcing just as
cheerfully, "Alive and ready to go. When have we to meet?"
"Oh-nine-hundred in the hanger, but the Commander’s
with Vice-Admiral Notrahw so she will probably be late. Oh, and a Rookie
ear marked for the Knights turned up last night with some of Rogue Squadron…"
"Rogue? Is Skywalker with them?"
"No," Poom-Bar admitted, "But I’m
sure that Commander Hawkspar will be able to fill you in on any information
Antilles has."
Despite the hangover, Lainy caught the tone in Poom-Bar’s
voice and smelled intrigue. "Why?" she asked, slowly.
"Well, they must have been talking all night."
Lainy looked at her for a moment, then pressed "And you say that
because…?"
"He was in her quarters when I called there this
morning to let her know that Baz had arrived and that Notrahw wanted
to see her."
"Baz?" Lainy asked, her mind still pondering
the implications of Wedge Antilles having spent the night in Kaz Hawkspar’s
quarters.
"The Rookie."
"Oh…" She vaguely remembered Wedge
from the base on Dantooine – dark-haired bloke with a ready smile
and a quick, if dirty, wit. Kaz wouldn’t have… would she?
There again, from what she remembered of Wedge and from some of the
things Kaz had said, he had been quite a ladies man… And they
had all been through a lot…
No, she decided. Poom-Bar had stumbled on an innocent
conversation and had jumped to the wrong conclusion... Probably…
~ * ~
Kaz looked at him in horror, "Sir… You can’t!"
"Well, who else do you want as your Second?"
"You can’t bust her!" she repeated.
"I can," he contradicted, "And I will.
She has to learn, Commander. If she hadn’t involved your ground
crew I would, in all probability and in light of the recent circumstances,
have forgotten about it. But her practical jokes have to stop. Ell
Mo has to realise that her actions have consequences!"
He saw the quick frown that flashed across Kaz’s face at the Correllian
phrase and asked, "You did know that she’s known throughout
the ship as The Joker?"
Kaz sank back in the chair, completely at a loss, "No, Sir…"
Somehow he hadn’t expected her to take his judgement
so badly. And he could see that the last revelation had completely thrown
her. For a moment he thought of relenting, reconsidering his decision.
Then duty pushed at his conscience. He stepped back into his rank and
he made himself forget that Kaz was a friend, forcing himself to think
of her as Commander Hawkspar. He had made his decision, Lainy Kal’Ten
had to face the consequences of her actions. "You see why I have
to act on this?" he asked.
She nodded, "Yes, Sir."
"Good. Then I expect you back in this office in
half an hour with Lieutenant Commander Kal’Ten and Lieutenant
Edraa."
She stood up, "Yes, Sir." Turning, she started to walk towards
the door.
"Kaz?" She turned back, looking at him, "I’m truly
sorry."
"I know," she told him. "So am I."
And Lainy Kal’Ten damned well better be! she thought,
turning away and stalking out of the door.
~ * ~
Xen walked nonchalantly into the hanger, ignoring the
headache that was already beginning to disappear under the weight of
the painkillers she had taken. She scanned the hanger, looking for any
of the Rogue squadron pilots whom Poom-Bar had said arrived the night
before. They were no-where to be seen. However, the Omega engineers
had stripped the blaster cannon off one of their X-wings and were standing
looking intently at wiring diagrams. Xen saw the look of consternation
on Flight Enilra’s face and decided that it probably wasn’t
a good idea to disturb them.
Then she saw Poom-Bar and Shei on the far side of the
hanger, chatting to a young man. She walked across and the Supply welcomed
her with a grin, introducing, "Lieutenant Xen Edraa, the squadron
Third. Pilot Officer Baz Ahtron, newest recruit for the Knights."
Xen shook his hand, returning his smile, "Welcome aboard."
"Thanks."
Poom-Bar glanced at the chronometer on the hanger wall,
"Sorry guys, I’ve got to run." She flashed Baz a grin,
"Talk to you later." Then she turned, walking across the hanger,
throwing Lainy Kal’Ten a brief salute as she and Aryes Drayke
walked into the hanger
One of the engineers said something to Enilra, who
turned, then bellowed, "Chief Drayke, get your butt across here!
Now!"
Ary swore under his breath, glancing at Lainy before
running across the hanger to where the Flight Engineer waited for him.
Lainy grinned, watching him as she walked across to join the other pilots.
Xen glared at her as she approached, accusing, "Either
you’ve taken almost a bottle of painkillers, or you’re going
to die for getting me so drunk last night!"
Lainy’s grin widened further for a moment and
then faded as she admitted, "Painkillers. And the Supply’s
cheery wake-up call didn’t help!" She gave the young man
they had been talking to the once over, then stuck out her hand, "You
must be the Rookie!"
Baz heard both the other pilots sigh softly, saw Xen
rolling her eyes and remembered the Flight’s words. Giving Kal’Ten
his most wining smile, he took Lainy’s proffered hand and deliberately
gave her a rush of over-enthusiasm, "That’s me, Sir! Baz
Ahtron! First posting! They said Omega was the best! And I’m so
completely thrilled to be here, you can’t imagine. One of the
Black Knights…? It’s like a dream come true, Sir! It really
is!"
Lainy retracted her hand warily from Baz’s grasp,
glancing at Edraa, "He hasn’t met our Revered Leader yet,
has he?"
"Which," Xen put in, dropping into gossip
mode as she saw a certain Rogue Squadron pilot walking into the hanger,
"reminds me!" She dropped her voice as she realised that he
was walking across towards them, "Did Poom-Bar mention anything
to you about Wedge Antilles being in the Boss’s room this morning?"
"Oh, yes!" Lainy admitted, brightly. "But
I’ve been thinking about it and I think she’s got it completely
wrong! I mean, can you imagine our Revered Leader with Wedge Antilles?"
Xen’s eyes were growing wide, but Lainy didn’t notice. Nor
did she notice Shei shaking her head slowly in warning as she continued,
"I mean, Antilles wouldn’t stand a chance if he and Kaz got
together! She’d kill him… Antilles wouldn’t be able…
to… walk… for…" She trailed off, finally seeing
the horror in the other pilots' faces. Dismay dropped through her stomach
as she asked, "And he’s standing right behind me, isn’t
he?"
The pilots nodded and Lainy closed her eyes, grimacing.
She turned, treating Wedge to her most winning smile, "Wedge, how
nice to see you again! Haven’t seen you since… Dantooine!"
Wedge looked at her, trying desperately to keep his
face straight and not to dissolve into laughter at her discomfort. So,
he thought, Kaz Hawkspar would kill him, would she? He didn’t
stand a chance, did he?
In a sudden flash of wicked inspiration he took another
step towards Lainy, slipping his arm round her waist and pulling her
to him. Voice husky and before she could recover from her surprise he
told her, "Lainy, my darling…. You’ve only grown more
beautiful!"
Then he kissed her soundly on the mouth, wresting stunned
expressions from the Knights and a muted cheer from the other Rogue
pilots who walked into the hanger at exactly that moment. He pulled
away and felt an evil rush of satisfaction as he saw the stunned shock
on Kal’Ten’s face. He held on to her, grinning mischievously
at her, "Hello, Lainy. How have you been?"
"Put her down, Commander!" Alissha Downhigher
told him. Then one of the other pilots apologised to the Knights, "He
doesn’t get out much – for exactly this reason."
"Oh, that’s all right," Wedge told
them, breaking away from Lainy, "Kal’Ten and I go way back!"
He grinned at her again, "Don’t we?"
"Dantooine…" she managed as he stepped away.
"Heard it, Commander!" Ali derided, then
finished, "Oh, and the Vice-Admiral wants to see you."
"Thank’s Ali. Introduce yourselves!"
he told them all, turning and walking away, "I’ll be back
when I can. And," he called over his shoulder, "play nicely!"
Walking into the corridor he dissolved finally into
fits of laughter, giggling like a child as he walked along towards the
repulsor lift. If that was the usual sort of occurrence from Lainy,
he could understand now why Kaz had laughed when he had called her a
mouse. Life certainly wouldn’t be dull with Lainy Kal’Ten
around.
The lift door opened and Hawskpar almost walked straight past him. Still
laughing he caught at her arm, stopping her, "Kaz?"
The look she gave him wiped away the light-hearted
mood. He grasped hold of her other arm as she tried to pull free of
his grasp, "Boss, what is it?"
"Leave it!" she told him.
But he held onto her as she tried to pull away again,
demanding, "Commander, what the hells is wrong?"
Her eyes flashed and she yelled at him, "Everything! Every single
bloody little thing!"
Two engineers had walked into the corridor further
down and turned, looking towards the pilots. Wedge saw them and dragged
Kaz into the lift. He let her go, turning to hit the hold button and
when he turned back she was sliding down the wall to sit on the floor,
head in her hands.
He stood for a moment, looking at her, unsure what
to do. And then he heard her say, "Goddess, Wedge, I’m sorry."
He laughed softly, sliding to the floor beside her, "Want to talk
about it?"
"Too long and way too involved…"
"Always is…" he quipped. Then pressed,
"Will you at least tell me who you were about to kill?"
She grunted in disgust then sighed, "Lainy…"
She sighed again, a deep, weary sound that Wedge realised was ripping
her apart, "I don’t know how much more of this I can take.
I’m fed up with being responsible for people…" She
laughed coldly, "Maybe I ought to take up that desk job."
"A desk job would kill you!" he warned. Then
he tried, "Tell you what, you tell me what Lainy’s done to
you and I’ll tell you what Lainy’s done to me."
Kaz lifted her head, giving him a stricken look, "Oh,
Goddess, not you as well. I am going to kill her!"
He laughed, "It wasn’t exactly her fault…"
"It never ever is exactly her fault, Wedge. But
it’s all caught up with her. She’s a bloody good pilot and
a more than capable Second… but she’s so damned irresponsible
at times. I know why she does it, I understand why she does it. But
there’s nothing I can do this time…"
Kaz shook her head, frowning, telling him, "She’s been busted,
Wedge. And she’s been stripped of her placing in the squadron.
Just when I need her the most, I’m going to have to break in a
new Second…"
Antilles whistled softly, "That must have made your day."
She laughed, "Yeh, and it isn’t even oh-nine-hundred
yet." She looked at him, "So what did she do to you?"
"Well," he began, grinning, "this really
wasn’t her fault. She was just in the wrong place at the wrong
time… or at least, I was."
"That’s the story of her life…"
Kaz told him, "Wrong place, wrong time… and it’s usually
me who ends up throwing the first punch!"
He frowned, "I know that feeling. It’s like
Janson and me… only he usually ends up throwing the first punch!"
She laughed, genuinely, and he continued, "Anyway,
there must be some scuttle-butt going round about you and me because
her exact words were: I mean, Antilles wouldn’t stand a chance
if he and Kaz got together! She’d kill him… Antilles wouldn’t
be able to walk."
Kaz gazed at him in horror, then started to climb to her feet, "I
am definitely going to kill her!"
He caught hold of her arm again, "Kaz, wait!"
She glared at him, then suddenly remembered, "Poom-Bar!"
"What?"
"Omega’s Supply, Lieutenant Catterin Poom-Bar! Who just
happened to see both of us…"
"Leaving your quarters this morning!" he finished.
"Exactly! It’ll be all over the ship by now! I’m going
to kill them both!"
"Kaz!" She looked at him, scowling at the
sudden impish smile and the devilment that flashed in his eyes as he
suggested, "Why kill them when we can have some fun at everyone’s
expense?"
"Fine!" She paused, "Then I’ll
kill them!" She checked her timepiece, "Damn, I needed to
be back in Notrahw’s office two minutes ago." The melancholy
settled round her again.
"You’ve got some breathing space,"
he told her as they both climbed to their feet. "He wants to see
me as well."
She nodded, stepping towards the door, "Fine."
"I meant it, you know, about having fun at everyone’s expense."
She hit the door release, "I’ll think about
it. I’ll come back to the hanger to find you." She stepped
out into the corridor, not looking back at him as the door closed. He
had dispelled her anger, but the weariness was still there. And she
had been telling him the truth when she said she no longer wanted to
be in command of the squadron – she had had enough. The desk job
was looking really good right at this moment. Her collar bone had begun
to ache again and she rubbed at it absently as she turned out of the
corridor and into the hanger. The Knights were laughing with the Rogues
and she pulled herself together, walking across to them.
"Hi, Boss," Xen greeted.
"Greetings, Revered Leader," Lainy smiled. "I don’t
believe you’ve met our newest recruit."
Kaz shook the young man’s hand, "Welcome
to the squadron, Baz." Then she turned to the others, "Ladies,
Gentlemen, if you’ll excuse us, Vice-Admiral Notrahw is waiting.
Lieutenant Commander Kal’Ten, Lieutenant Edraa, with me. Now!"
Lainy shot a look at Xen who shrugged as Kaz turned.
Then they both followed their Commander across the hanger. "What’s
going on?" Lainy asked as they caught up with Kaz.
Hawkspar turned, giving Lainy a look that made her
take a step backwards. Kaz stepped after her, closing the distance between
them, "What’s going on?" she repeated, her voice cold
and dangerous.
Lainy swallowed. She very rarely saw Kaz in this kind
of mood, but when she did it meant that someone was in deep, deep trouble.
And Lainy Kal’Ten had a sudden, sickeningly sinking feeling that
that person was her. The feeling solidified as Kaz continued, "Your
Court Martial, Lieutenant Commander!" She stressed the words, ramming
them home, "For involving other people in your pranks!"
And then the anger in her Commander’s eyes faded
to sadness as Kaz told her, "You’re on your own this time,
Lainy. There was nothing I could do." She turned away, walking
up to the lift.
Lainy swallowed again, wanting the floor to open up
beneath her, suddenly realising how much trouble she was obviously in,
suddenly realising how badly she had let Kaz down. Xen laid a gentle,
reassuring hand on her arm.
Kal’Ten looked at her, then at Hawkspar’s back. The lift
doors had opened and Kaz was stepping inside. Lainy walked towards her
stepping into the lift as Xen followed. The doors closed and Kaz ordered
it to the Command Deck, Lainy lifted her head, looking at her Commander,
"Kaz, I’m sorry."
"I know," Hawkspar acknowledged, not wanting
to look at her. The regret and sorrow had been heavy enough in her friend’s
voice. She knew that it would be written across her face and right now,
even though and she was still so damned angry at her, she couldn’t
bear to see that.
"How bad is it?" Lainy asked her, softly.
Kaz sighed, closing her eyes. She knew that she shouldn’t
tell Lainy. But, even now she wanted to her shield her: unable to forget
the fifteen year old girl who had sat numb and silent in the back of
the ship, incapable of taking in the enormity of having everything she
had ever known ripped away from her. Maybe that was the problem…
Maybe she had tried to shield Lainy too much… in which case this
was all her fault.
So she opened her eyes, looking at Lainy as the lift
slowed to a halt, the doors opening. "You’ve been busted.
And Xen’s now the Second."
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